Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Verdict from the king : I'm sorry for not posting a new post for 12 days.I
faced some weird difficulties.When I signed into my
blog, it showed "loading" for 1hour+ but nothing
happened.So I can only sign into it at school's lab
and my mum's office.
My sincere apologies
Moving back to school... ...
I am very sad that I had to sacrifice my squash training to study.Well i had to.....my parents was the reason.I also wanted to show my class that I was not 'stupid'.Everyone in class is biased, they make friends/nominate you as class-committee based on your exam results.If you are smart, everyone look up to you,if you are stupid like me,then you will be in the loser pool.I needed to show them that i was capable of it,if not i will always be regarded as a rotten apple.It does not feel good attaining the bottom ranks.But what can i do, it's karma that I become stupid and dumb.
Today was like the best com-science lesson ever.The usual mr soo's lesson is so fast.I'm always like the last person to understand something.Com-science is fun, but the thing is that I'm just too stupid to absorb anything quickly enough.
Me and my life SUCKS!!!I suck at geo,physics,chem,eng,lit,history and hmt, and i'm just okay okay with bio and math.People think that I am a playboy/Casanova.
Hate:
And there is a bloodsucking and irritating mosquito in my school.He keeps on staring at me like a bloody gay, always move beside me whether walking the stairs on walking to ANYWHERE. And always purposely walk past me using his shoulder knocking my shoulder.He talks with a high pitched and unclear voice and has no backbone.In class always lay on the table, walk up the stairs with half his body lying against the wall.If you know who you are I'M SORRY!Its hard for me bottling my feelings inside you know.By the way this website is differentemotion.blogspot.com not yahoo or Google, so it was your own will to visit my blog.It's not that i hate you, but i just don't like the way you look at me and stuff.I know you will "attack" me back, but I don't care.I'm already a worthless bastard.It doesn't hurt me if you do anything.I've been thru shame, pain, agony and every other feeling beside happiness.So it's nothing to me.
Sorry:
I'm sorry toufiq for all those that I've done.It's been a hell of a time with you.I never felt so close with you.Those days were the most amazing days I have ever had so far since I came to SJI.I think you are like my boyfriend already.But I'm not gay.And Rachakan......I know I'm in the wrong.It was wrong for me to do that to my best friend.The days we had were fun.You were like my brother.We went out often, buy shirt, but bags, makan and many more.Those days were unforgettable and it was really happy times with my 'brother'.I know that it's a little hard for you to forgive me, but I just want to tell you that I'm sorry.If you really want a guarantee, I will forget about her and erase everything about her.But I need to tell you that the reason I texted her was not what you thought.You told me that you had a quarrel.....i merely wanted to help and put a strong and lasting tape around you two.I know that it's hard to accept it but it's the truth.
The painting of people's life is vibrant and colourful.
While mine is all tears and blood....
Just when will my life start to brighten up or will it just continue on like this.How i wish i could just restart my whole life.
ARGHHH!!!!!!!!
ELSTON SAM ZHEN SHEN IS DEAD
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8:38 PM;
